As I move farther along in my journey I am beginning to realize or remember that I have literally never dated anyone. I had a few short term "relationships" in high school but those dont really count.
Jamie and I just knew we wanted to be together and decided to get married so we never dated. Even the 6 months we were engadged I was in Korea. So going into it now at almost 40 I am quite literally lost as to what to do. Being shy when it comes to these things is not helping. Maybe I need a trainer on dating. Not even knowing the first thing to do even approaching someone to go on a date I feel like a fish out of water.
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As time goes by I can feel more of the loneliness of not being in a relationship. I miss it, I loved being married with the give and take of it all. Jamie was the love of my life and my best friend and I miss having that. That is what I want to find again.
My desire to be in a relationship can be overwhelming at times. My mind makes connections with someone that do not exist, I start thinking how it would be to laugh with the that person, how it would be to just simply talk and hold that person.15 I have friends and family but nothing compares to being in a romantic relationship, being in love is so much more. That moment when you are watching or doing something that turns out to be funny or interesting.and you first reaction is to want to tell someone and laugh with them, but it quickly dawns on you there is no one there. |
AuthorI thought I had it all. I often told my wife if I died tomorrow I would die complete. Then she was gone and my world flipped upside down. I was told a blog is a good thing to have and I should write about what I have been going through. So here it is my attempt at this whole blog thing. Archives
May 2018
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